Everybody,i m fine! Dont worry!

So long didnt use this blog de
cause i 4get the password!
now only i realised that i have been changing tis password more then 6 times!
i hope i will remember the new password la!

tis few weeks,i recieved a lot of calls n sms,
asking bout my current situation n positoin!
i m quite sorry 4 not replying the call or sms,
cause my phone was in silience mood 4 quite long n i didnt noticed that!
4 that i m really sorry!

i think 4 tis 3 months,
i nid the time 2 rest n be alone!
pls dont ask me where m i!
pls dont worry 2 much!
as i said,i m fine!

i really nid time 4 myself!
so just leave me alone 4 while!
i will be bek n appear very soon!
hope that time u all can c a new TAN SHEA HAO!
no longer the 1 u all knew !

i hope tis change can bring a new life 4 me,
meanwhile 4 u all also!
thanks 4 those who call n sms me!
i m trying 2 be tough!
n dont worry,i will not just left u all like tis!

here,taking the chance,
i would like 2 say sorry,
2 those who i had hurt them be4,
2 those who i had gave them trouble be4,
2 those who i had scolded them be4,
or,
2 those who i had done anything 2 them be4!

here also,taking the chance,
i would like 2 say thanks,
2 those who helped me all the while,
2 those who saved me all the while,
2 those who like n love me as their friends,
including u,u,u,u, n u!

currently,i m really fine
n hope every1 that miss me
dont worry 2 mich
just give me some times
n i will let u all c a different me
appearing in front of u all!
THANKS 4 EVERYTHING!

~written by~
TAN SHEA HAO
16.06.2011
11.10am

My Own Office Room Part 2

Monday(13-09-2010)
1.27pm

Haha
small boss just finish lunch with dad
had a great lunch
at 1st dont feel like eating cause still full after drinking the coffee
but when look at the meal,
it makes me hungry again!
got my favour dishes
like tomyam seafood
soup n so on
beside greaty,
still great

now small boss is back 2 the office de
quite full
n now feel like sleeping
cause nothing 2 do
wondering n wondering around the office
looking at staff doing their work
the whole morning!

now is the time 4 me 2 take a short nap
be4 small boss continue his life in office
but................
this office dont let the stuff ascess to facebook n hotmail
so i just google-ing only
wat should i do after the nap?
i myself dont have any idea

now i know wat the white collar did during their lunch time
oh my god!
they r chatting 'crap'
talking bout others,
discussing the best way 2 pull out the tooth DIY
talking how bad or good their boss is
dont they have a better topic 2 talk or discuss?

v cant say anything!
this is a big city
this is how they relax themselve
after half day of working
this is the life of white collar
hey,i respect u all!
small boss is resting now
c u all later!

My Own Office Room

Monday( 13-09-2010)

Haha!
I had my own office room in my dad's company!
i like a small boss
sitting in the room
drinking coffee
reading newwspaper
even any1 1 2 come in also need 2 knock the door!
i never thought of this day
but it comes true!

Actually,
sitting in this place
i m thinking whether the real day will comes true or not?
cause now i m still a student!
a uni student!
there r still 4 to 5 years time 4 me
be4 i enter the working life n journey!

m i suitable 2 work in an office?
until now i still dont know the answer
cause i m a person
who dont like 2 sit still
so how can i work in an office?
i dont like people 2 set the time of working 4 me
so how can i work in an office?

haiz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat is my future?
wat job m i doing?
i think this is 2 early 4 me 2 think of

but i enjoy sitting in my office room
like a small boss!
i love it
i enjoy it!

M i serious?

haiz
got problem with friend again
tired of this feeling
i dont know why

make decision is hard thing 2 do
cause scare make the wrong 1
thinking 4 almost 1 day
n at last
i know the answer
just put down

always standing on your side
but now i think i should go 4 rest
do watever i 1
without caring how u n others feel
cause now i need my own time

i already promise 2 myself
spend more time with myself
n not 4 others

after hearing wat others say n tell me
even wat ms tang wen ying said
i think i really need 2 protect myself
myself should be the 1st
friends should be the 2nd

i dont know how 2 protect myself
cause everything i also shared with every1
i think i m doing the right thing n decision
so now is my time 2 rest
maybe 4ever or just temporary
nobody know

i m out of th egame
n my next journey
will keep it as secret

PISS

Why I angry???
U should know the answer.
I don’t think I must tell u the answer.
Cause u know very well.

I always think 4 u.
Your food,
Your thing,
Your class,
Your report,
Your homework,
Your coursework.

But at last,
U still didn’t see my hard work?
Why?
U r no longer the 1 I know of
U had changed.
U r different people now.

I tried not 2 be angry.
I tried 2 control it.
But at last I cant
I m 2 full
Is time 4 me 2 release
I don’t know why u become like this
I feel like I m the maid
N u r the boss
I don’t know wat 2 say.

If u still like this,
I don’t really mind bout u de
Cause I got my own life also
Got my own problem 2 solve
I m not robot
I m human
Got feeling.
PISS.

I m sorry.

Oh my god
i found out something 2day
that i really sad of
n i really feel sorry 4 him
cause i misunderstood wat he sent it 2 me
how nice if the time can go back 2 that day

actually,like others said,i still very care of u
just that i didnt let u know
everytime in front of u,
i act like i m no longer know u
but i did observed your movement
this is the only way i can know how r u.

so how is your new house????
i know i will not get the ans 4ever
cause u will not be able 2 contact me again
n i had deleted your contact from all the medium
now only i feel that i m so silly of doing that

i got lots of thing 2 tell u
but i know i dont have the chance already
i told others that i have put u down
wat do u think????
i still cant
yes,
this time,i didnt do as wat i say
cause i still treat u as my friend
still the 1st friend that i met in here


this is the reality
n 4ever will be the reality.

LIFE IS GAME

Life is just like a game.just that v didnt notice that v r playing.
As v know,there will sure be a winner n a loser.
in a game,there cant be both winner or loser.
yes,v both have been almost sucessful in this game.
but suddently i feel so tired.
so i decided 2 leave.
dont ask mw why
dont feel sad 4 me
i have been thinking this 4 quite a long time de
v have been working so hard 4 this game
but at last,i found out somethung
i dont understand u at all
i thought that i know u better that other cause v r so close
but i m wrong again
v r almost in the end of the game
but i cant longer be your partner anymore
cause i m tired 4 this
n i think u have found somebody that is better than me
so i choose 2 give out
dont blame me 4 not acc u complete this game
but i dont have choice anymore
u r a very good friend,
partner,
but i dont know how 2 interact with u anymore
sorry 4 everything
i didnt mean 2 do this 2 u
i think this is the best way 4 us
let him acc u complete this ngame
cause i had quited.
I HAD QUITED!